I feel like a freaky shaped puzzle piece that doesn’t fit in. Just thinking bout spending another new years with my parents, and all there friends is really bumming me out. All their friends tolerate me, but they’re like 50 – 60 and I’m 22… so they all kinda know that I’m a bit fucked up, particularly because I never really talk to them. I was thinking of just picking up my tent and guitar and camping somewhere in the wilderness, just to get away from all the happy people shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR! But I really don’t have the courage to deal with all the people that I would inevitably meet and question me along the way. I was thinking of doing this WWOOFING thing which is this website that lets ordinary people go work on organic farms. But all the farms usually get people from overseas to stay (people with no-where else to go or stay). And I thought it would be a bit weird ie. ‘Hi can I come and stay with you and your family over new years?’ ‘Sure where you from?’ ‘Just down the road.’ ‘OH… sure…’ Anyways I’m going into too much boring detail. Feeling realy down today… a lot of you guys said that keeping yourself busy is a good way to beat depression, my motivation is not at an all time high right now, but I’m going to try and do something tomorrow and start running again. Neways thanks for listening.