just me having a moan again, ignore me. i hate fridays, i hate it when she goes out and i have that time alone. i hate the thoughts i have. i hate how badly i wanna do something. i hate how i snap at everyone and push them all away so as not to hurt them. even though i know that by doing it i AM hurting them. and how i now have 3 hours alone, all alone, no one would notice until it was too late, hmmmm.