A friend of mine has been hinting threats that she's going to kill herself. Today she mailed me some things of hers that she wanted me to have. I've tried calling, but no reply. I've tried a number of ways to reach her, with no luck. I guess what will be will be, but I'm scared and sad. The rest of my life is also pretty miserable. My girlfriend often seems disinterested, though she says she isn't. My mother is very critical of me - which is fair because I am a complete mess, but it also adds to my stress. I can't even write about things in an interesting way now. It's the same shit over and over. I feel unloved and unwanted. I don't want to live my life for myself. And right now it feels like no one would really care if I died. I'm miserable and just want away from it all. Thanks for listening.