I have recently gone through losing all my friends. I got into an argument with one of them and now no one will talk to me. This isn't the first time this has happened to me either. I have lost two other different groups of friends in the past. Maybe it is because I am a b**** or a bad person? I don't know but I can do this again. I never planned on living past 25 and now am pretty sure I won't. I have tried many medication and different kinds of therapy but nothing helps. People say that this feeling will pass and that I won't always feel this way but I have felt this way for the last couple of days. This is something for me. I know it is a selfish thing but this is my life and my choice.