So first of all I'm a new user so I'm a little unsure about how all this works. I'm 21 now and I've been depressed for a long time, at least since I was 14 that was the first time I saw a therapist. I feel like I'm slowly getting better and dealing with my depression in more effective ways. But one thing that has been consistant since that time is the lack of support from my friends. My family has loved me through all my ickyness and because of that I am at my happiest when I am around them or when I think about them. But my friends seem to ignore me whenever I am depressed. Perhaps they think I am angry with them or that I don't want to be their friend or something-I don't really know. All I know is that I don't get support from them. Instead of crowding around me and asking me whats wrong and what they can do and pushing past my depressive crust they just ignore me. For that reason when I am no longer depressed or feeling better I AM angry with them and in turn ignore them. I don't want friends who won't support me when I need help. The only problem with this is that now here I stand as a 21 year old who spends a good majority of her nights home alone. (which in and of itself doenst really help the depression). I guess I should just forgive them and accept them for not supporting me because I understand its hard. But at the same time I wonder where am I suppose to draw the line? When is enough enough and when do I know when my friends are hurting me rather than helping me? Is this just my problem? Is it possible for depressed people to have friends? REAL friends-not surface friends. Friends who care and support? I guess thats what this site is... IDK... I just feel lonely alot of the time and then I feel guilty for feeling lonely.