Lost my motivation for the gym, a personal instructor said something and has ruined my enjoyment for it. Also I'm not in the mood to speak to my friends for reasons I've mentioned recently and one of them also go to this gym so I'll prefer to stay away for the time being. My friends haven't bothered to get in touch anyway in a while and some people stupidly wrote asking if "I was dead or not" on my facebook wall. When I'm not talking to or with my girlfriend I feel confined to my bedroom. I do my work from home I'm pretty much stuck here. You would only need to add bars to my windows to get the full prison effect. Compared to my friends I feel like a massive underachiever I can't face chatting to them and they keep belittling me about it. They don't seem to understand either why I like to think with my head rather then my penis where girls are concerned. They've also become quite materialistic (since when did us Brits start to copy the Americans?!) I feel quite down yet on a high at the moment.