As some of you may know I've been really ill these past few days. I was on the verge of calling out the emergency doctor and I honestly thought I'd end up in hospital. I thought people would understand and would actually be supportive but instead some people, who I used to call friends are thinking I made it up. It hurts and at a time I needed them most they were not there for me and it just goes to show who real true friends are. For the first time in ages I've seen my dad worry over me so much he was going to call out the doctor or get an ambulance, and believe me that is something of a rare thing especially of late because my dad has shown very little positive interest in me, normally it is him who is giving me crap. I'm truely shocked to hear people saying they thought I made it up, they couldn't be more far from the truth and as much as it hurts, I've learnt I can't trust people and I can't let them into my heart because it always ends up in hurt.