It still fucking hurts!!!!! No I'm not holding a grudge or holding on to something that should be over. It hurts to see you and know that you so easily said you were my friend and then left. Just like him!!!! Well I did what I said I would do. Be your friend. Try to help. And as usual I end up hurt. Why do I let myself be suckered all the time. I truly dont know. Why I dont see the signs... I dont know. When will I stop being so stupid and believing that people truly want to be my friend or care... I dont know. When will I stop hurting.... probably never. Cuz it seems to be the only thing I truly know and understand. I wish others could truly understand how much I hurt. Have you ever felt hurt over and over again that just makes you wish you were dead?