I have always wanted to be in a real relationship. But since I have only ever known FWB, I always assume that I must just not be good enough for someone to want to date me.
I had a really good friend, a guy a bit older than me that I was seriously attracted to. He is a big flirt and I just assumed our relationship was going to be platonic, but one night things changed. I figured, and was okay with, that he would just want to hookup a couple times. He was so different than how I imagined. I tried to play it off like it was cool if it was a one or two time occasion, but, he wanted more. It was/is so surreal, we have the most amazing chemistry. I never really even enjoyed sex until I met him, and it is always amazing. Even after a few months, he kept reassuring me that he would "never disrespect me" and "is so grateful to have a friend and lover like me in his life", "no one makes me feel like you do". I never brought up a relationship, because I am fine with what we have right now. I kept trying to even give him an out of the fwb if he wanted to stop.
But the past few months I haven't seen or heard from him much. It's like every month, he'll go just a little bit longer without texting me or seeing me. At first, we'd see eachother a few times a month... then a couple, then once... now I haven't seen him in two months. The time is unbearable almost. We still text and he seems like he really wants to see me, and I know he has a bit of a crazy schedule... but I feel like he could make time to see me. I just feel like something is going on. When we are together, its like nothing is different... then once we get in the cars to leave I'm a stranger for a couple weeks til' he texts me. (I try not to text him first/all the time because I don't want to bother him). I figure he is probably seeing other girls... but even so.. I would still like to see him.
I dont know what to do. Although ultimately I would want a relationship... I know that might not happen, and I am fine with fwb... I'm not really okay with how we don't talk or see eachother near as much. I don't know how to confront this without potentially pushing him away?
I had a really good friend, a guy a bit older than me that I was seriously attracted to. He is a big flirt and I just assumed our relationship was going to be platonic, but one night things changed. I figured, and was okay with, that he would just want to hookup a couple times. He was so different than how I imagined. I tried to play it off like it was cool if it was a one or two time occasion, but, he wanted more. It was/is so surreal, we have the most amazing chemistry. I never really even enjoyed sex until I met him, and it is always amazing. Even after a few months, he kept reassuring me that he would "never disrespect me" and "is so grateful to have a friend and lover like me in his life", "no one makes me feel like you do". I never brought up a relationship, because I am fine with what we have right now. I kept trying to even give him an out of the fwb if he wanted to stop.
But the past few months I haven't seen or heard from him much. It's like every month, he'll go just a little bit longer without texting me or seeing me. At first, we'd see eachother a few times a month... then a couple, then once... now I haven't seen him in two months. The time is unbearable almost. We still text and he seems like he really wants to see me, and I know he has a bit of a crazy schedule... but I feel like he could make time to see me. I just feel like something is going on. When we are together, its like nothing is different... then once we get in the cars to leave I'm a stranger for a couple weeks til' he texts me. (I try not to text him first/all the time because I don't want to bother him). I figure he is probably seeing other girls... but even so.. I would still like to see him.
I dont know what to do. Although ultimately I would want a relationship... I know that might not happen, and I am fine with fwb... I'm not really okay with how we don't talk or see eachother near as much. I don't know how to confront this without potentially pushing him away?