:wub: here, :wub: there. Love you! "I've made such good friends on SF!" BS. All fucking BS. As soon as you leave the site or get sectioned or don't have any internet access anymore, or just simply can't access this particular site anymore, you'll see who your real friends are. Hah. I know I've mistaken myself in many friendships. Some have stayed as they were and I'm very happy with those, but those are mainly the friends whom I didn't talk with on daily basis. But the ones whom I used to talk to every day, the ones I used to love so much, the ones I used to try to give so much.. all finito. It's sad. Of course I'm not happy with it. I tried. I have. But obviously I'm not as important to people as they said I was. I was right all along, that part in my head was right all along. I'm not even angry at people or anything. I'm just angry at myself. That I had myself fooled into believing everyone. My bad, I should've known better. I've had myself fooled into internet friendships so many times before. And only very few have turned out to be the way they said to be. Why do I still believe people? Unbelievably isn't it, that the people I never was really close with, or didn't talk much to, haven't forgotten about me and seem to care, whereas the ones I gave so much love, the ones I was so fucking close to that I honestly thought the friendships would last even after me leaving this site, can't be arsed to care. But yeah.. it's my own fault. I guess from now on, online is online. The few online friends that have proven themselves to really be friends, I'll cherish them, a few in particular. But no new online friendships. I'll only end up being fooled into believing that I'm actually loved and cared for. Hah. Ah well at least I've proven once again what an idiot I am :laugh: Thank you.