i want to kill a friend. we're very close and i hate him so much that i want to kill him. i think i am a psychopath (and i dont just mean that i'm crazy. there are a lot of psychopaths who may never even really know it). i'm not going to kill him though, because i would get in trouble, and being in trouble to that extreme means no world of warcraft or guitar. so what i want to know is....WTF. how can i want to kill my best friend? he only upset me because he was being an asshole. what he said i didnt care about. he was simply being an asshole. is it normal for me to fantasize this? how can i turn on people so quickly (and forgive, as well)? he's my friend, but i feel like i've had a secret plot against him, as i do with everybody that i get close to. oh, and if i regret saying this stuff by tomorrow or whenever, please disregard this post.
love,
_nu
love,
_nu