I have been to this horrible place many times in my life. It is so difficult to crawl out of this hole. I have been trying to restart my life for 12 years. It ends up right here...resistance is definitely futile The site is a bit confusing. perhaps my brain is so fried it can no longer logically connect to the obvious way to navigate this site I cannot purchase a gun b/c in Pa the background checks work. Having been in the hospital for a weekend in 2004 prevented the sale to me. I thought that was providence but then they found an aortic aneurysm in late 2012...this eventually required surgery in late 2013...so even the recent trends make it hard to justify fighting any longer. I am very alone, no family and only 1 real friend to help me. I am literally drained of all energy. It's barely possible to breath. Robin Williams event showed me this is not about money, fame, talent or human contact. It's about this awful place I keep coming back to were the pain is so paralyzing. Unless you've been here it is not possible to describe how paralyzing the pain becomes.