from shaddows to eluminations On top of the world, I feel so great, I can do anything, in control of my fate. Rushing around, getting jobs done, I didn't know my life could be this fun!! ticking off slowly, the jobs from my list, i never thought i'd do all this errands to run, and visit the store, then come back home, and get on with more. there's stuff in the garden, and stuff in the house there's stuff in the letterbox, loads to sort out. preparations for christmas, and inviting friends round, celebrating with them, the jolliest sound! and stuff in the oven, and under the stairs and stuff in the fridge, so much to prepare there's laundry to wash, and windows to clean pets need attention, don't want to be mean kids to collect, from the colledge and school, and then for the evening, we can act like a fool hide and seek, or play peekaboo or go out on the swings, there's so much we can do! we could go on a picnic, we could go to the beach we could try for the funfair, have a candy floss each we could go to the circus, or the arcade, let's just have a good time, what do you say? there's so much to see, and i'll show you it all from ducks in a duck pond, to kids playing ball and aeroplanes that go as high as the sky, birdies and insects, are pretty when they fly and cute little animals, like puppies and cats, we could go to a farm, would you like that? Then, with no warning, my world crashes down, My smiles dissolve, and my face wears a frown. Tears falling silent, deep in my heart, Hiding my pain, I play a part..... it's hard to talk, it's hard to explain, why i'm feeling like this, all over again i'd explain in great detail, about what i can feel, but you're too young for that talk, so it wouldn't seem real to tell you what, i'm going through, so let's just go home, find something to do cos i need peace and quiet, and to rest a bit, this really is nasty, this feeling is shit! trapped in an elevator, full of my thoughts, no button to quit, though i want to abort so sorry everyone, for how i'm feeling today, it happens in cycles, that is the way.