It's like I'm in a state of constant fear. When I sleep I dream of horrific events. When I'm awake, my heart races like doom is coming for me. I can't breathe, my thoughts are scattered and I hear many voices all talking at once. I can't seem to escape this. What is this? How do I make it stop? Do I embrace it or try to figure out why it's happening? So many questions. Unanswered. Maybe no answer to. It hurts yet I deserve it. But why do I deserve it? My head throbs like I'm being hit repeatedly with a sledgehammer. But I deserve it, don't I? Where is joy? Where is happiness? How do I make peace? Is this happening for a reason? If so, what is the reason? It's reoccurring. When it happens I can't pinpoint why it could be happening. My dreams are vivid. There's a faceless being always there. Who is it? What does it want? What does it want.from me? Do I awake before it can show me? Am I subconsciously running from it so I wake up before finding out ? I'm so confused. I'm so tired. How do I make it go away?