Frozen in the Dark

[The Unforgiven]

why am i here?..
what purpose does my existence serve in the grand scheme of things?..
or for that, in any scheme of things?
i dont want to move the earth off its axis.. quite the opposite.. would be more than happy just living..
i am not living.. i am just existing..
i just am..
unlike the little pebble on a shore, i feel...
but again, just like that chip of stone, the waves pound me relentlessly.. again and again.. grinding me down with every blow..
will i crumble?.. will i fade away?.. will i cease to be?..
i certainly hope so...

but right now..

Im frozen.

The castle of ice i live in
is beautiful, cold, unfeeling.
The barriers around my heart
are delicate, strong, unyielding...

Banished myself to solitude,
i do not live but exist..
like dew drops on a lily which
an ice maiden has kissed.

What warmth can i seek here, what love,
when warmth is my world's bane?..
These silent walls speak so loud,
against any hope, profane..

Extinguished thus in the dark i am,
probably will be forevermore,
Till i melt away into an ocean of sorrow,
but am frozen by the lonely shore...


yusra.

 

[total eclipse]

You have a true talent that is purpose in life stating so eloquently the pain one has inside. Keep writing so others can be touch with such words You are a beautiful writer

 

[lifeisashedog]

Your poetry makes my eyes sweat