Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by The Unforgiven, Nov 4, 2010.

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  1. The Unforgiven

    The Unforgiven Well-Known Member

    why am i here?..
    what purpose does my existence serve in the grand scheme of things?..
    or for that, in any scheme of things?
    i dont want to move the earth off its axis.. quite the opposite.. would be more than happy just living..
    i am not living.. i am just existing..
    i just am..
    unlike the little pebble on a shore, i feel...
    but again, just like that chip of stone, the waves pound me relentlessly.. again and again.. grinding me down with every blow..
    will i crumble?.. will i fade away?.. will i cease to be?..
    i certainly hope so...

    but right now..

    Im frozen.

    The castle of ice i live in
    is beautiful, cold, unfeeling.
    The barriers around my heart
    are delicate, strong, unyielding...

    Banished myself to solitude,
    i do not live but exist..
    like dew drops on a lily which
    an ice maiden has kissed.

    What warmth can i seek here, what love,
    when warmth is my world's bane?..
    These silent walls speak so loud,
    against any hope, profane..

    Extinguished thus in the dark i am,
    probably will be forevermore,
    Till i melt away into an ocean of sorrow,
    but am frozen by the lonely shore...

  2. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    Sorry you feel this way. Very sad poem. :sigh:
  3. sunshinesblack

    sunshinesblack Well-Known Member

    the mood in your poem reminds me of this ... one of my fav songs, but so sad, it makes me cry sometimes

    hope the sun will eventually melt your icey walls and remind you u r not a pebble

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  4. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    hello hurtlilkittykat!

    your poem was nicely written, liked it. your username and avatar are so sweet and sad.

    here are some nice hugs!

    :hug: :hug: :console:

    hope you feel better soon hurtlilkittykat!!!!!!
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