I feel like people have more say and control in my life than i I do. I need to get new glasses but I don't have the money. A relative wants to do it for me, and I am grateful and all, but I want to wait for personal reasons, most of which has to do with, I really don't want to go anywhere because of all this emotional stuff. I know I sound selfish, but I am angry because in the past when i needed her help especially when it came to getting to work, she was difficult, now she won't back off a little with this. Yes, it's hard to see at the moment, but I am managing. I just wish everyone, episodically in my damn family would be considerate of my personal decisions about my life...because they aren't. oh and before anyone thinks about saying to me i should move away, please don't because 1) i don't have the means to do that right now and 2) it honestly makes me think about taking my life. im sorry for being dramatic, but it's true.