Today I was supposed to go to a job interview but once again, my cousin, the person who i sadly have to depend on isn't willing to give me a ride. I try to be understanding and appreciative and all, but she is getting on my nerves...she has no idea how fucking hard it is getting a job. she keeps telling me to go to this stupid job close in town and i keep telling her that all i can fucking do is apply which i did with a resume and personal letter asking to be considered for hiring. if the person says they aren't hirring right now, it is pointless to keep asking. but you can't tell my cousin that. It's this type of bullshit that makes me want to give up on life....i may need her or other people's help at times, but i don't need them blocking opportunities in my life.