I'm so sick of everything. I'm depressed. I think about killing myself all the time. I can't stop hurting myself. There is no help. I've tried everything. I'm so angry and frustrated. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't feel like I can trust my view of things because there is always conflict around me that I don't understand. I don't see myself causing it, but there's no other logical explanation. The conflict must be because of me. I've tried medication to help with the depression and suicidal feelings, I've done therapy. There's just nothing else. And I'm so stupid. I keep holding on to a shred of hope, thinking that I just need to get some help, that someone can help me. And then every time, I get beaten into the ground again when I realize that nothing is helping and nothing will help. I can't fix my life, I can't fix myself. The doctors can't fix me, my family can't fix me. I don't know what to do. I'm so incredibly frustrated. I really can't stop hurting myself. I have cuts and bruises all over my body. I wanted to kill myself today. I'm completely messed up. And there's no solution.