I hear ya. It seems sometimes life decides to give you the pits instead of the good stuff. Up and down that rollar coaster myself quite a lot. There is a saying that says when you hit rock bottom, the only way is up. Well, where the heck is the bottom anyway? Focus on something that is happy. Smile at yourself in the mirror in the morning. Tackle one thing at a time and it helps:smile: I have been through a lot of things in my lifetime and some things made me want to give up but I didn't. Eventually things will be better, I promise. Hugs to you...I hope things get better for you soon. As for the knots in your stomache? Normal response sweetie. Take a deep breathe, growl if you have to at the issues you face. I believe challenges make us stronger people. It might not seem like it now but it does....Good luck!