(short version) Okay here it is, my grandfather was poison by my adoptive father and biological mother. Consquenty he died of ALS. My parents continued to slowly poison me and have until my mid 30's, now I have all kinds of health issues. I married with 4 kids that I am unemotionally avialable too, I have served in Iraq which fucked me up far more than I first realized, I have a bounty on my head cause I have pissed off the wrong people, I have a wife that slept with all my friend and now I have none. I moved out cause I can not handle the stress and now I will lose most of my money to child support and can't pay my bills, not to metion the med bill. I have incured after I filed bancruptcy, and I have spent the last year in and out inpatient mental health centers. Why shouldn't I just pull the trigger and end my suffing. I loney and have nothing, no money, no friends, no family, not even my health!