fuck fuck fuck fuck

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Isa, Jun 16, 2007.

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  1. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member



    I dont know what im doing. fuck.
  2. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    ok that was an unhelpful post. Im sorry.

    I havent been around much, um, you may of noticed, lol, ive been a member a year and a half but been off site for about half a year, maybe 8 months?

    Im so deep in crisis i cant talk to anyone.

    Since Ive been away ive been in hospital for overdose, which caused my Dad sister and then boyfriend all to have utter break downs.

    Now my dads on valium, sisters on coccaine and ex boyfriend and only friend irl because if you remember youll know i dont leave the house, he never talks to me..

    And I am having panic attacks daily, in my house, in my room, for no reason, because im so worked up

    Because I cant stop thinkign about death

    and I want it so badly

    And I think I have to go into some kind of rehab or therapeutic community, but i just know ill get stuck trying to help those around me and end up worse

    and I just wish

    I just wish

    I had the damn pills and she hadnt taken them away..

    and its not a top of my head thing

    Ive been craving death for weeks, my boyfriend had to rush down from north england to spend a week with me, and he HAD to go home, leaving me alone, even though nothigns changed, and hes so worrie.d. hes right to be worried.. im worried...

    Worried but so tired.. I dont know how much longer I can bare living in constant agony..

    Please god let it be time
  3. rd9671

    rd9671 Guest

    Can you elaborate on that? What has you feeling so tense?
  4. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    Hi RD, Im sorry, Im just so overwhelmed and theres nothing harmful in the house

    They took away the glasses, i drink out of plastic glasses, the razors the knives the screwdrivers the pills
  5. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    fine. FUCK IT THEN
  6. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    its no wonder i have no one to talk to
  7. genuinerisk

    genuinerisk New Member

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  8. ybt

    ybt Guest

    how does a plastic glass exist? :blink: surely that's a cup

    sorry, not belittling you, just find the term 'plastic glass' very strange
  9. sadchild911

    sadchild911 New Member

    i fucking hate living stop this nightmare :'(
  10. sadchild911

    sadchild911 New Member

  11. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    its see through plastic in a glass shape without a handle.

    Im still here. feeling very sick but alive.

    Im sory. I love you all
  12. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni


    havent seen you in ages and ages.. been wondering how you were. To be honest, I don't know what to say... just know that Im here to listen I guess. :hug:

  13. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    :hug: We're here for you if you need to talk. :hug:
  14. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    It's good to see you Nightmares and yes it has been a long time. i am sorry to hear that things really haven't improved for you over the past 6 months. It sounds as if you have been through many struggles. You have made it this far so don't give up now. I am usually around sometime during the day, so if you need to talk drop me a PM. Take care. :hug:
  15. Isa

    Isa Well-Known Member

    Thanks guys, god its so hard right now.. im drowning

    thanks for your comments guys its nice to see you all too
  16. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Thinking about you. :hug:
  17. Nightmares :hug:

    Be safe hun. Love you so much...
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