FUck!! aargh!! I'm so fucking screwed. I'm so unhappy with my life and with myself. I Have no life at all. I don't have any money to do any thing I want. Fuck this is totall hell. There is not a single piece of life I enjoy right now. i'm just disappointed with every thing. When there is nothing in life you enjoy, and there is no one who cares, then every thing is just hell. This is the worst ever.. I really need to kill myself. I'm 20 years old now, nothing has gotten better, nothing will. NO saviour, no better future. Nothing. Life is so fucking cruel. It's like it was designed to be a place of torment. I'm so fucking bored. my computer is not that old but and i already spent more than 3000 dollars on it yet now I have to upgrade it again to be able to handle the newest games. Fuck! If i try to hang myself my head would probably tear off from my fat body pulling it down. Would jump but I dont get out much and there isn't any tall buildings around I can use. Would od but i don't know what it will do, and ill probably just be in pain a while then be taken to the hospital and every thing will be even worse. The mental hospital is just there to keep the workers bees in check, when they stop functioning like they are suppose to. My douche bag therapist never gave a fuck about me. Canceled our damn appointment because she knows I'm a fucking useless effort to try and help. She wants to avoid me as much as I want to avoid her. I need to be dead. There is just no way I will ever be happy or really enjoy life. Some one please end my life. i guess i just am too pathetic to do it myself like people have said.