Fuck, I'm PISSED

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by MaidenFan, Apr 18, 2011.

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  1. MaidenFan

    MaidenFan Member

    For no fucking reason. I didn't go into work today, I didn't call in either. I texted my manager at like 2pm explaining that I was depressed. At least it's something, right? In the past I would have just done nothing. I want to quit my job. This is the longest I've ever worked anywhere, almost a year now. I'm gonna be twenty six in a couple weeks. I still haven't graduated from college. I wanna drop out.

    I hate the world, and everyone in it. I hate myself, for hating the world. I can't tell the difference between myself and the world. I wish everyone would just shut the fuck up and leave me alone. I don't care if I die. I'm not gonna kill myself (maybe) because what's the point? The difference between eighty years and twenty six is nothing when you stretch time out to eons, or even infinity. Who the fuck cares. NONE OF THIS MATTERS!!!!

    Life is absurd. ABSURD! How the fuck can you find meaning here? Many people love me, and that's the most fucked up part. I hate that. I don't DESERVE to be loved. I'm a fucking MONSTER. In many ways I'm already dead. Nothing matters, nothing matters, nothing matters! Why are you people trying to force me to do shit. To become somebody. I don't care. I don't want to be part of your world. Your world sucks. It's full of control and coercion and force. People just drown themselves in mindless sex and buying shit and bragging about how cool they are. Who the fuck cares that you bought a new car? Does that really matter?

    I don't know who I am. I don't know what I want. I don't want anything from THIS world. I have a picture in my head of what this world could be, but it's like nobody gives a shit. People talk about change and freedom, but don't really understand the implications of those words. Your world is DYING, you will all waste away in polluted sludge. Does anyone here understand what it's like to see the human race MURDERING its self and its MOTHER (the planet) for no better reason than to get a few status symbols and to be absoultley powerless to stop it?

    Do you fuckers understand that something like half the world's population survives on two dollars a day or less? That's BILLIONS of people living in fucking garbage dumps. And we in the west are suffering from radical alienation, stress, depression, and abuse. This is one giant system built on fear and abuse and it's KILLING all of us.

    It's ironic, we're trying to save some people here on a suicide forum and for what? To turn them back into "productive members of society"? NEWS FLASH: this is a suicidal society. We're commuting suicide on planetary scale, and NOBODY gives a damn. You're all too busy watching Jersey Shore and fucking sports, too busy talking about each other and gossiping behind your backs. Everyone fucking gossips, everyone turns on each other.

    Fucking narcissistic bullshit, all you know what to talk about is yourselves. The party's over boys and girls. It's OVER! Fuck your Katie Perry's and your lady gaga's, fuck your justin beibers, fuck your abercombie and fitch, fuck your debt-ridden, superficial, valueless, wasteland of a culture. Fuck your crumbling economy. Fuck your inflation. Fuck your unfunded liabilities. Fuck your glutinous over consumption. Fuck your war rhetoric. Fuck your blood lust. FUCK YOUR INSANITY!

    I'm mad as hell, and I'm NOT gonna take it anymore. Who's fucking with me? We're all suicidal anyway, why not make a statement? Why not march on fucking Washington and chain ourselves around fucking congress and lock those fuckers in there? At least we'll make the news for about a week until these fucking sheep get wind of another hot celebrity story.

    Why not <Mod Edit, WildCherry>? Lets rush all the mental hospitals and release all of our types, and let them deal with that. Hey it'll happen soon anyway cuz the fucking government is BROKE. And if you don't live in the USA, don't worry, your country isn't doing much better. It's all gonna crash and burn and all of you are gonna go with it. It's all the same ponzy scheme, and you're all shills of believing in it. You think your governments are gonna protect you once food and resources start running out (and they will, probably by the end of THIS decade)???? FUCK NO! They're gonna protect themselves, and their establishment. They're gonna round us up into labor camps and prison camps. They're gonna fucking go to WAR!

    World War Three is fucking coming folks, mark my words. People are fucking stupid enough to go to war over FAKE made up shit, so they will DEFINITELY go to war once the oil starts running out. OIL IS PEAKING THIS DECADE AND THE POPULATION IS EXPLODING. Because of this food prices are gonna go through the roof. It's already happening. Get yourselves ready for massive shortages of just about everything. Starvation, disease, riots, unrest, fear, madness. Every apocalyptic nightmare that Hollywood has devised will look like a fucking fairy tale compared to the hell that you've created.

    I'm not depressed because "I got beat up at school" or cuz "my parents hate me" but because I recognize the deep seeded cultural problems we now face on a global scale. We're running straight for the edge of a fucking cliff and everybody is pretending like it doesn't exist, like we can just keep on running with no ground beneath our feet. WAKE THE FUCK UP!

    None of this matters anyway. I'm just blowing off steam. The joke's on you, because none of you will take me seriously. Investigate this shit yourselves, and you'll realize that you've been tricked. There's no future on this planet. Our species is on the verge of extinction. There is no God and there is no messiah to save you. We blew it folks. We failed the test. We had an opportunity but you baby-boomer fucks decided to get high on lsd and fuck around instead of seriously investigating consciousness with it LIKE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO. Now you wanna LOCK ME UP for using these drugs properly, for using them to open hearts and minds and show people the true nature of their being. Now all you fuckers are retiring and expecting ME and MY GENERATION to foot the bill. FUCK YOU! I won't do it. This is fucking HELL and I fucking quit. I'm walking away. I'm leaving hell! Kiss my ass goodbye cuz we'll never meet again!
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  2. Lestat

    Lestat Well-Known Member

    I agree with mostly everything you said there. Some of the american tv stuff I have no idea about though... But yea... Sadly I agree. But my problem is I have children which depend on me. I guess this is what made all the hippies fall into the trap.

    But I love your hunter s thompson like rant. Keep it up, I know i'm not meant to say that though...
  3. TooShyToScream

    TooShyToScream Well-Known Member

    That was fucking cool, man. I agree down to the last word. Good to know someone around here has a brain at least.
  4. me myself and i

    me myself and i Account Closed

    Way too angry for me.
  5. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    we love you here.
  6. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    Give the baby boomers a break. They were searching for answers through LSD. Don't count them out just yet. I think they have one more trick up their sleeve to save the planet....

    As for Generation Y, you there plugged into your headset while texting, e-surfing, IPodding, OPeeing, all-peeing...you think technology will save the planet? You're wrong! News flash: you all suck, especially your music.

    Ahh, got it out of my system. That's my rant for the day.

  7. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    I agree, that the western ideal of life is wrong, but its what we have to cope with.
    As for helping people survive suicidal feelings to reintergrate into society, I would hope, that someone who has been in the frame of mind where they want to kill themselves, would get better and be a better person for it.

    Also, I am slightly, offended is too strong a word, but the vast generalisation you give to us, re following 'Hollywood' and worshiping lables, gossiping, etc. Not everyone is like that. People do have brains (very few) but those who do, are trying to do something, not just sitting their growing fat on our asses as we watch brain dead tv, and not being able to think for ourselves.
    We're not living in a land of idiocrocy YET.
    Dont give up hope, you feel like this, do somethign active about it, instead of taking it out on people who you are sharing similar feelings with.
    Things can be done. Changes can be made.
  8. nolonger

    nolonger Well-Known Member

    ^^^^^^^^^^^ This.

    Oh and I'd also like to be around when petrol(well, oil) starts drying up. Imagine when we have all the old cars lying around. All the money the (Oz) government is spending on these large road expantions seems a bit stupid to me. They should put train lines along the freeways/motorways instead of putting more lanes on the roads.

    But I guess it'll mean we have more places to ride our horse-drawn carriages and steam-powered motor cars, LOL :toff:.
  9. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    I wont say no to a nice fancy carriage. I am however picky on my choice of horse. I want no less then a Cob, but more happy with a shire horse. thanks. Just getting my order in now, before the prices go crazy
  10. doityourself

    doityourself Well-Known Member

    I wont say that I agree with everything but there is alot in your thread that is absolutely true.

    Im in the US, and I to am tired of working my ass off to see neighbors sitting on thiers, and to see them live better than me. I have worked, paid taxes, contributed to this world since I was 14.

    Great Thread, but hope you get your anger under control, anger is evil and will eat you up.

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