Fuck it all fuck it all fuck it all fuck it all fuck it all fuck it all fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all fuck you all yeh all these posts "don't give up, he does love you, just having a hard time showing itblablablalba" BULLSHIT! ALL OF IT! BIG FAT BULLSHIT!!! course he loves me, sure he does,thats why he's basically telling me I'm not welcome anymore, right? I mean that's just a sign of paternal love. sure it is. SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEE fuck each and everyone. all people. FUCK THEM. for fuck sake all this time I've been living, going through each and every punishment I got because I fucking deserve it. and just as I start thinking that I've been through enough punishment THIS happens. FUCK IT. I can't fucking deal with that. FIne. Well I guess at least I know where we stand now. I do not know how to get through this. I do not know. Honestly :cry: I've been through my best friend dying, losing my mother, sexual assault and god knws what else... it's been enough. and this was just that one thing needed to get me over the edge. I do not trust myself right now and if I were you I would NOT reply to this, nor talk to me, no matter how much I want it, because right now I'm NOT a nice person. FAR FROM IT. I'm the biggest bitch alive right now. Thank HIM for that. I can't deal with anything right now. I'm sorry.