Fuck It All

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Tahiti, Oct 23, 2006.

  1. Tahiti

    Tahiti Well-Known Member

    I don't fuckin understand. What the fuck is wrong with all of these <mod edit: bunny - offensive>? If I want to die, then it is my choice. It's my life, I can do whatever I want with it, and if I want to end it, then I will. NOTHING can stop me- not my family, so-called friends, or even the great god himself. Nope. So don't make my life more complicating than it already is and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

    WHY THE FUCK are all these pro-suicide forums/newsgroups blocked? Wtf? I'm so fuckin pissed off right now I feel like breaking the fuckin keyboard everyone knows that EVENTUALLY I'LL DIE ANYWAY so why bother monitoring me? I don't want words of sympathy or assurance or even encouragement, I JUST WANT TO DIE. THAT'S ALL I'M ASKING FOR- GIVE ME ASSISTANCE SO THAT I CAN DIE. God these fuckin losers just let me die peacefully, please, I'm begging you. I don't want to live anymore so just let me die. But I'm such a fuckin coward I can't even die <mod edit: bunny against the rules> life is meaningless anyways, I don't give a crap I don't care if life can get better or worse it doesn't matter anymore it's too late I just want to end it what's the use of living when you have no will to live? SO I just wish that these dumb <mod edit: bunny - offensive> THAT HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT HURTS WHEN YOU WANT TO DIE SO BADLY AND YOU HAVE NO MEANS TO just want to block these fuckin websites? Where the fuck am I supposed to get more information? Contacts? What, this forum? THis forum is PRO-LIFE, NOT PRO-SUICIDE, I NEED PRO-SUICIDE STUPID FUCKIN LIBRARY STUPID FUCKIN RESTRICTIONS ILL KILL ALL YOU <mod edit: bunny - offensive> JUST LET ME ACCESS THESE DAMN SITES AND LET ME DIE DUMB BITCHES I WANT TO DIE SO FUCKIN LEAVE ME THE ALONE LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE MIND YOUR OWN FUCKIN BUSINESS YOU HEAR ME? MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND GET OUT OF MY LIFE LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME DIE PLEASE JUST LET ME DIE.

    Why are people so cruel? WHY THE FUCK DO THEY LIKE TORTURING DEPRESSED PEOPLE? BY FORCING THEM TO STAY ALIVE? IT'S HELL FOR ME ALREADY SO JUST LET ME BE MYSELF, LET ME BE IN CHARGE OF THINGS ONCE, LET ME FOLLOW THIS DECISION AND FEEL IN CONTROL OF MY OWN LIFE JUST ONCE JUST ONCE BEFORE I DIE PLEASE.

    I'm going to die anyway. Sooner or later, days, weeks, months from now, I'll be dead and gone. SO INSTEAD OF TORTURING ME FOR A LONGER PERIOD OF TIME JUST LET ME GET IT OVER WITH SO THAT I WON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH LIFE LONGER THAN I WANT TO.

    God, please, just let me die, just kill me, somebody get a gun and shoot me, calling all killers, I don't care, just shoot me and kill me right in the skull I'm too young to get a gun <mod edit: bunny - asking for methods> Please god just kill me and send me to hell just have mercy and end my life now <mod edit: bunny - against the rules> I want to die so badly but it's SO FUCKIN DIFFICULT TO DIE WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO DIFFCULT? HOW MUCH LONGER DO I HAVE TO WAIT?
     
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  2. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    What is making everything this bad? Why cant you hope for happiness? Whats wrong?
     
  3. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    I am sorry you feel so badly, but maybe after a while you'll feel better sinse you just vented. I am here if you ever need to talk..... :hug:








    ~Carolyn:hug:
     
  4. Tahiti

    Tahiti Well-Known Member

    To begin,


    LIFE JUST SUCKS. What other explanation do you need? You know that when people truly mean this that they have some shit going on in their lives right now, as in my case, as in everyone's case here, and I don't feel like pouring out my soul to complete strangers. Honestly, when I first came here, I had such high expectations, I thought there wouldn't be these stupid fuckin restrictions I thought that I'd be FREE TO do whatever I need to do. I try not to feel this way but whenever people say, "Life will get better" or "sit down and tell me what's going on" I feel like fucking bashing their skulls in as in, "Even if I tell you, you wouldn't fuckin understand, and you don't REALLY care about me, you're just curious or you have nothing better to do or this is just your job." So STOP pretending that you're so fuckin concerned. Maybe someone should've helped me YEARS AGO, when I REALLY, REALLY needed it, before I ended up becoming the lifeless pathetic thing I am now.