fuck it

[UpForAbbey]

I'm so not in the mood for this right now. I wish everyone would just leave me alone. I wish I never came to this fucking forum and made friends that I knew would only wind up hurting me. I have one friend left, possibly two that haven't completely fucked me over. Who would fucking care if I were to do anything right now? Not anyone. and you can reply with your hugs and your sympathy, but I don't believe it for a second, nor do I want it. I want to fucking die, and I wish I could. I wish I had a fucking way that would work. I wish my fucking sister would stop bugging the shit out of me. I wish people would grow up. I wish that I could start over. but fuck, I can't. I'm abbey, and I'll be abbey for as long as I live, so youknow what? fuck it. I don't want to live anymore.
:unsure:

 

[UpForAbbey]

Oh, and you know what else? Stop fucking lying to me.
I may be retarded but I'm not a complete idiot.
You think its funny to fuck with my head, eh?
Yeah, karma is a fucking bitch.
Youre a fucking liar. You're all fucking liars and fakes. There are MAYBE two dozen of you that haven't lied here. MAYBE.
fuck it

 

[saint6]

people lie, nothings going to change that... everyone says "it'll get better" etc etc but really they dont know shit.
im not the type to tell people that its ok and there is always tomorrow, cause there isnt, most likely its going to be the same as today. i am going though shit as well and i dont like it when people lie to me, but i take it as them atleast taking the time to lie, which means they care just a little bit.

im just replying to tell you that i feel the same way at times, that noone gives a shit about me even my closes friends. friends are only strangers with a name. they will turn their back on you and make you feel like shit.

i do care if your alive or dead, if i didnt i wouldnt be posting this right now.

this probably wont make you feel any different, but im not just gonna turn around when i could at least try.

 

[gentlelady]

What is going on Abbey? PM me if you need to talk.

 

[Petal]

abbbbbbbbey :hug: (that's a genuine hug)

I have only been talking to you about 2 days so far, I think your really nice and cool:smile: As for the people that aren't nice or supportive to you on this forum, ignore them hun, theres much more caring and genuine people here than the sort that are unsupportive. Give us a chance hun :arms:

lynn

 

[~PinkElephants~]

Abbs,

Honey, we talked yesterday and I want you to know that you are a true friend and anythign I say or do is 100% truthful. I think you are a beautiful girl and those that hurt you are not worth seeing that beauty you have inside of you. Don't let those that feel they have to lie and manipulate to gain friendship ruin you. You are better than them by far.

I will be on msn via my phone later on and you have my number. Hit me up if you want to talk. Oh and remember we still have plans to go hiking up a mountain. You can giggle at my ass tripping.

Wubbles you Mills.

Kell'oggs.

 

[nagisa]

I'm so sorry that people here have lied to you, Abbey. I've had it done to me more than once so I understand your feelings about this. I'll always, always be here for you. Anytime you need to talk, you know how to get me. :hug: :hug:

 

[Marshmallow]

Your probably not gonna appreciate this reply but i wanna be truthfully honest with you. I did care about you and i still do no matter what. I not gonna send you the 'bullshit' hugs but i am gonna send you genuine ones. I care about you and Courtney. I love you both to bits no matter what.

Your a beautiful person and i'll sit here saying it till im blue in the face if you want me too but my minds never gonna change about that.

I care about you and always will.

 

[Sa Palomera]

I'm on MSN if you want to talk, Abbey.
My PM inbox is open too.