haven't had a wink of sleep, can't stop thinking to save myself, got a screaming headache, stomach doing handstands (drinking, although not a lot), screwing up uni - badly, really badly this time, and putting at risk money that I really need. in getting out of this particular hole, I seem to be grabbing the shovel, time and time again. not going to work today now, first day Ive missed on this contract. cant even get a hug from her anymore, and you have no idea how much I "need" physical contact. I need a damn good shagging tbh (ya I know how fucking pathetic that sounds, I really dont care) i need answers today, i really need to make some decisions.