I know i'm annoying, I know I piss you off! You think I don't know that?! Yes i'm very fucking aware! I hate myself. I'm an insane fucker with people that I call friends that probably don't even want to knoe me. And i'm not blaming them. I can't talk to people with out feeling like I pss them off, and I can't talk to my councellors about how I feel because then they tell my parents, then my parents tell my school then I go back on 'Suicide Watch' Whatever the fuck that is. And you know what. When I do talk to a mate or something about how shit i'm feeling, they either don't reply, or say 'it'll be okay' and then go offline. They're only saying 'it'll be okay' because they don't know how i'm feeling. And they think it will pass within an hour or something and next morning i'll wake up feeling really fucking dandy. Yeah I pretend I am. Just so I don't piss them off even more than I already have. I'm gonna take a guess and think by the time anyone reads this, then they'll be pissed off too. And kind of hate me. Hate. Strong word. I'll go with 'dislike', but if you want to hate me. Go ahead. I'm just so sick of life. I'm a walking scar and have attempted suicide 4 times. WTF! How can I fail 4 times?! It's stupid and unfair! I just want to die! Too much to ask? I would be doing everone a huge favour. Just Fuck It. Fuck like in the ass! Fuck it in the ass with a chainsaw!