I cry almost every day. The pain is so bad that I can't put it into words. I feel all alone in the world.....like I could die right now and it wouldn't matter to anybody (and nobody here can say that they care about me because they don't know me, hell if I died, nobody here would even know about it). I have really bad social anxiety, don't have many friends. The few friends that I did have all turned there backs on me. I have but one friend left and I feel like i'm a burden to her, like she would be better off without me. I know my family cares about me but I am not close with them either, I feel as though I am a burden to them as well. I feel like this whole fucken world would be so much better without me. The world doesn't need someone like me who feels like shit all the time and is gonna bring every one down. Some people might miss me but I know they would get over it.....I try to hold on for the VERY few people who do care but I just can't do it. Nobody understands, they all tell me that I'm being to dramatic. They have no clue the kind of pain that I'm in.....I just wish they could understand. I wish that for one second that they could feel the pain that I feel every fuckin second. It's all going to be over pretty soon. Maybe in a few months, when I turn 18. I have a plan and I plan on carrying it out. And it will result in my death. Considering that i'm posting this, it's obvious that a small part of me still wants to live. But even so, the pain is just to much for me to go on.