Wow. FUCKING Wow. It never goes smoothly for me. Not now. Not later. Not fucking ever. When one window opens, the whole fucking house caves in. When one light flickers into life, the fucking power goes out. It will Always be this way for me. It will Always be the world against Em. It will Always fucking be hard not matter what. I hate myself. I hate having to go on like this- Why would I want to live if this is how it's going to be? Why fucking bother if I never get a break? Because it's the right thing to do? Fuck the "right thing"- The right thing has never happened for me- Why should I have to continue to suffer. Why should I have to go on like this. Why should I have to be strong. I'M ALWAYS FUCKING BEING STRONG. Every damn turn, every damn time it's a struggle- I'm tired and I'm angry and I'm fucking done with all of it. Fuck it I'm out.