I don't know what to do. I genuinely don't. I can't believe this has happened to me again. I can't believe I allowed myself to trust again. Oh my God. Why do people do this? Why does it come so naturally to them to just lie? Do they genuinely not understand the hurt they cause, or do they just not give a shit? I'm soooo tired. I can't stop crying. I don't want to hurt any more. I don't want people to see me as so inconsequential, so insignificant, that they can inflict pain without a second thought, that they can walk away time and time again, proving just how worthless I am. I'm broken. I need to die. Even if I didn't want to it wouldn't matter.. this has come down to what I need. Things aren't getting better, they haven't for years.. and now this? Honestly.. I don't know what to do. Why am I so fucking stupid as to believe anyone could care about me anyway? Why do I buy into the bullshit, when looking at every experience I've had with people in the past has left me alone? I must be a fucking disgusting, repulsive, horrible person for this to happen. I hate myself. I can't do this. I can't. :cry: