Fuck my life

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Jekter, Jun 20, 2012.

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  1. Jekter

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    i hate

    THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT

    I AAM BIPOLAR AND I TRY SO HARD TO BE NORMAL, BUT IWTHIN DAYS IM ONLIEN TELLING PEOPLE I WANA FUCKING KILL MYSELF

    FUCK GTOD FUCK GOD FUCK GOD

    HE GAVE ME THIS - BEFORE I WAS CHRISTIAN IW AS NEVER DEPRESSED

    AND I FUCKING HATE SWTOR - I USED TO PLAY SWG AND THEY SHUT IT DOWN FOR SWTOIR AND FUCK SWTOR ITS TOO HARD AND TAKES TOO LONG AND I FUCKING HATE IT AND I WILL FUCKING KILL MYSELF TODAY WATCH GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!

    AND GO AHEAD AND TELL ME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL

    I JUST GOT OUT LAST WEEK, AND AND WAS HOSPITALIZED SEVERAL TIMES LAST YEAR

    COLLECITON AGENCY CALLS ME EVERYDAY - I HAVE NO MOENY AND OWE THEM$60k

    THEY FUCKING COMMITED ME - SO WHY SHOULD I PAY?

    FUCK EVERYTHING I WILL DIE TODAY WATCH
     
  2. EisNayk

    EisNayk Well-Known Member

    yeah getting sent to the hospital then being forced to pay lots of money when they did nothing to solve the problem is complete BS.
     
  3. Sea Sparkles

    Sea Sparkles Well-Known Member

    Jekter -

    What makes you suicidal, lets talk?
     
  4. Sea Sparkles

    Sea Sparkles Well-Known Member

    I see you went offline, I hope your Okay.

    Things get better, Jekter.
     
  5. Jekter

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    Have officially given up on life as I see it is impossible for me to do anything
    And I tried my best
    Disabiltiy is processing
    Tried my best to work jobs
    Tried my best to do college
    Tried all meds and therapy
    But no matter what i always end up fucking here

    Fuck god fuck god fuck god fuck god fuck god
    Fuck
    God

    It doesn't matter if I kill myself tonight

    Either way I been dead for a while
    Just realized It today
    So know I'm in my hell
    All I can do is wait for my life to stop
    Or to make it stop
     
  6. Sea Sparkles

    Sea Sparkles Well-Known Member

    Jekter , I understand you have tried... :hug: sometimes it takes awhile for things to change!!! Please don't harm yourself 2nite, it does matter. Meds and therapy take awhile to sink in.. sometimes you have to change meds/ different types of therapy to see what works for you a few times to get it right. I know it can get frustrating!!

    Sometimes a shower can help you calm down. Or a glass of tea. Please try some of those things.
    Things do get better- just hang in there, hun.

    :hug:

    Please be safe.
    If you can't handle the urge please call 9-11 or a hotline. :/
    Or PM me!!! :hug:

    - Sea
     
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