I'm at school in lunch right now surrounded by a group of friends. (mod edit method) I can't fucking deal. Today will be exactly like tomorrow and the day after and the day after and so on until I end this shit. I'm sorry I'm going on a rant but this site is my only hope. I doubt anyone else will listen and I don't want to burden anyone. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired of this game. It takes so much effort to go through this shit everyday and act like nothing is wrong. I'm so tired and so lonely. So tired. So tired. So fucking tired. Im sorry this sounds like some self pitying rant button I knew this site in the only place that I can confide in because I'm sitting here surrounded by people trying not to break down in tears. I wish something would save me from this fucking nightmare but I know deep down I can only save myself and hopefully the voices around me will become background noise. I feel like I don't have the guts to really do it but there are moments in which I really think I could.