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fuck it, fuck it all. the world seems so empty. abandoned industrial estates and echoing hallways. the wind whistling. longing for human contact but flinching when it's given. longing to be born again, to have a fresh start. the beauty of it all is so startling and sad, i don't think i can take it. i love life too much, i just can't find a way to cope with it. i can't handle all these images, all these choices, all these complications, tragedy and beauty. i can't handle it. i want time to stop. i don't want to feel all this time slipping away again. is there anyway to cope with this, this sensory, beauty, sadness, complicated overload? it gets so much i can't breathe. i don't want to be alone with this anymore. there's nothing over the cliff, just dark empty nothingness for eternity, there's NOTHING. but i can't live here where THERE'S TOO MUCH