FUCK YOU fuck you all. What the hell? What the hell did I do? What do I do wrong? Please tell me cause I just don't understand...I just don't get it. Rejected over and over and over again...and then i get angry and get told that I haven't been rejected....DO NOT give me that fucking bullshit. Why the hell do I get treated like such an idiot? I can see through you....why is this world such lies? And no one seems to get it the same as me....not lucky enouh to cope but not unlucky enough to get sympathy...who the hell are you to judge suffering...who the hell are you? I am screaming inside....I am screaming for help....btu I get looked over over again, I get laughed at, pitied, embarassed looks. Don't you fucking hypocrites reply....do not reply with your lies....how the hell cn you understand? how the hell can you if you are accepted, if you don't have to go through this absolute misery of being rejected or even worse, had your spirits lifted pathetically and cruelly (I know its only my fault for being so easily excited and childish and gullible and hopeful) to be let down again, exchanged for someone better, who looks so smug, who gets hugs when they're down....I have to look at this....dying inside....and know that behind it all....NO ONE cares. There's always someone better and more important, even with my own fucking mother. YEah I'm going to fucking say it. MAke fun of me if you want to, I am seriously past caring. LIFE ISN'T FUCKING FAIR. Don't give me an empty hug, I want your honesty, thats all I want. TThe worst thing is, I know, I am a hypocrite, I am a hypocrite because I am not honest. But I DO care. I care about friends. If I leave its probably down to my own self hatred/low self esteem, i probably think that you don't like me anymore, so I'll spare you the embarrasment. That is a thing I am honest about. I love to help and encourage the underdog, I CARE! So why the hell don't I get anythking back?