He was right. When my fiancee said that my diet was just an impulse he was right. That's my life. Impulses. No long-term commitments, no patience, no goals, nothing. Just impulse after impulse and short term gains that I end up losing anyway or that end up making things worse in the end. I can't believe that this is my life. The impulse to go on a diet is over and now I have impulse to eat whatever the hell I want when I want, and I can't stop it because I don't care to. When I want something, I just do it and sacrifice everything in order to do it. I don't care about the consequences. With my diet, this was a good thing because I stayed so committed and loyal to it. But now, i've moved on to my next fix just like that. I don't want this to be me. I really don't.