Looks like im on my own again *sighs* Im hurt betrayed confused lost. Im tired of all the fake ass people who say they love me. Most of them jhust want to get in my pants. They dont actally care how i feel. I do everything to make everyone i can happy. I try my hardest i honestly do. I tear myself to peices then get it thrown back in my face. When i need them they alway say oh i was busy oh i was talking to my dad and they make up all sorts of BS excuses. When i need ressurencde their never there but boy when they fucking need it they want it they have to have it then or i loose them. Why am i always the one to apolgize why do i always have to beg for forgivness why me? I try hard to make them happy id do anything if it made them happy. Im falling apart doing it but i dont care. Then they tell me stop pitying yourself and think about me for once or you dont really care or some other shit well i do care if i didnt why do i have peoples intails cut into my body why do i check if their online why do i care anymore. It always gets thrown back in my face. Im tired of all their BS . I want people i can rely on not people who leave me as soon as i dont reply 5 seconds after i message them well im done. im NOT going to rely on anyone NOT going to trust anyone Not going to belive in anyone from now on. People arent worth giving a shit about anymore.