fuck you. fuck all you people who acted like my friends. but you still judge me. for everything i do. and you hate that i drink. and smoke sometimes. and have gotten high. and do stuff with boys. you hate that. and you aren't like me at all. and i fucking hate you. but i don't hate you. i really don't. but time has passed. and i have changed. and nothing is the same. anymore. and it will never be. again. and i want to disappear. i can't get over my sexual assault. and no one can understand me. no one will listen. no one will care. so fuck them. fuck them all.