i have felt mroe depressed than this in my life, but never so guilty, so upset, and so worried. i just came home from a party where i had a massive argument with my friend's mum cos she was extremely rude to me...(won't go into detail) but now i feel really guilty cos i think i upset my friend too. it was the worst night of my life, ALL my friends were making out and i felt so incredibly left out, i'm 17 and i've never even been with anyone in my life. i can't sleep cos i feel so guilty about shouting at my friend's mum and it was only me and her there and she pretended afterwards that she didn't say anything at all. i don't even know why i care so much, anything right now makes me worry til i'm literally sick. i feel so lonely right now. looking at how happy my friends were with their boyfriends just made me so jealous.