fuck..

[ZombiePringle]

I don't know how I'm going to get through another day. I've just been in horrible shape and I don't know how to pull through. I am completely worthless. A complete waste of space and I feel like its my time. I don't know how to push through another day.... and really I'm not even sure if its worth pushing through another day.

 

[Kiba]

Is there any crisis line you can call? Or get a hold of a therapist if you have one? If not, maybe consider the hospital if things are pretty bad. :hug: You can get help to make it though. Please try to get the help you need.

 

[ZombiePringle]

To be honest... I don't want to pull through it this time. I'm tired, its not worth it anymore.

 

[WildCherry]

What's wrong, why do you feel like it's not worth it. And so you know, you're not worthless or a waste of space.

 

[me myself and i]

Josh, you are the best, a true ninja. hugs

 

[ZombiePringle]

I'm not the best... far from it. I honestly can't do this... I've been pushed so far....

 

[WildCherry]

:hug: What's pushing you?

 

[me myself and i]

Talk to us Josh..............

 

[ZombiePringle]

its everything... Everybody expects me to be what I can't be. If I'm not being told how horrible I am then I'm being asked to do something for somebody. Its too much. And all I do is fail at everything I do.... I'm at my limit.

 

[WildCherry]

You don't have to do things you don't want to do, especially if you're being asked by people who treat you like shit. It's not fair to you!

 

[ZombiePringle]

I don't have much choice really. Its people at work and home... I could potentially lose my job or place to live if I don't put up with all this. The one person that actually makes me feel like I am somebody is 3 hours away. other than that every single person I know makes sure that I know how much of a loser I am. "Josh, you have no life" "Josh... why can't you ever do anything right?" It really has become quite obvious that I really am a nobody and won't ever be a somebody.. I've put up with it for far too long and its finally broken me down.