Fucking psychiatrist

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by feathers, Dec 23, 2010.

  1. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    Honest to fucking God. I GO to see a psychiatrist. I tell him what is wrong with me. I tell him, I have EVERY SINGLE TRAIT of Borderline Personality Disorder. PLEASE diagnose me, PLEASE get me onto some form of treatment. PLEASE help me regain control of my life.

    But he won't fucking diagnose me because he says that he doesn't want to give me a negative label. CANCER IS A FUCKING NEGATIVE LABEL. You don't fucking see hospitals treating cancer without diagnosing it do you!? And BPD can be fatal too! 10% of people with BPD kill themselves and I am just getting so FED UP and I feel so HOPELESS that I just want to kill myself! The amount of help I'm getting from the health service is fucking RIDICULOUSLY low. I'm passed around from initial assessment to initial assessment and no one seems to know what's going on. The psychiatrist said, go here for help with the BPD traits, I get there and they tell me they can't help me with that, and that I'll have to be referred back to the first mental health team I visited that fucking referred me there in the first place! AND HAD A 3 MONTH WAITING LIST. This is so hopeless. I feel so lost and like I'm getting NO WHERE and I don't even know if getting the right therapy will even help me or if I will be fucked for life.

    But it's besides the fucking point, really. I'm not going to get fucking anywhere if the psychiatrist REFUSES to fucking TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG and get me onto appropriate treatment! HOW am I going to get onto appropriate treatment if he won't even say what's wrong with me? It is fucking RETARDED of him not to tell me what's wrong with me. NEGATIVE LABEL MY ASS. I'd rather have a negative label than me fucking dead. Or would I? The latter is sounding more appealing than this fucking shambles right about now.

    Kaz x
     
  2. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Unforunately BPD even has a stigma within the mental health industry. Your psych is kinda doing you a favour by not labelling you with it.

    As long as your symptoms are being treated then a label does not mean all that much.

    I understand your frustration, however.
     
  3. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    My symptoms aren't getting treated though. That's the thing. He's passed me onto someone who doesn't even know what BPD is and if I'm having trouble getting treatment for being DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL then I doubt I'm going to have much luck getting treated for undiagnosed borderline traits.
     
  4. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Are you assertive in asking what it is that you need?
     
  5. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    I only spoke to that particular psych once and I was not in an assertive mood that day, no. I was however when I spoke to the mental health primary care team a few days later, and he knows what I want, but I won't be seeing that psych again so I don't know what this new guy can do for me.
     
  6. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Alright. Well i've found that once i had taken control, so to speak, of what i needed then i got a lot better results. Obviously this only goes so far if you are dealing with incompetent psychs.

    Don't give up though. I know how helpless it can seem but once you find the right person it can do wonders.

    CBT and medication is your best chance at surviving BPD.
     
  7. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    What type of meds? ADs or mood stabilizers?

    And thanks, I'll talk to the mental health dude about those next time I hear from him.
     
  8. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    An anti depressant, anti-psychotic or mood stabiliser, or combination of, depending on the individual case.
     
  9. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    The psychiatrist was arsey about that too :/ he wanted me off ADs ASAP, and said basically, no mood stabilisers.
     
  10. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Did he say why?
     
  11. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    Well I won't take me seriosly with the BPD so I doubt he took me seriously about how mad my mood changes are... Also he seems to be one of those, therapy no meds types :/. Which is annoying because meds are the only thing that has ever slightly worked for me. The last therapy I had just made me worse.
     
  12. sunshinesblack

    sunshinesblack Well-Known Member

    hey maybe trust him?
    its easy to read stuff and self diagnose but its considered failure by default
    med students diagnose them self with half the stuff they study in their first years, and they r mentally stable

    Id say take him seriously, life makes people act a lot of ways, that's why you have psychiatrists that saw hundreds of people and can make the best judgment, instead of expecting wikipedia to treat you.

    I might be wrong, but life is the worst condition to threat, that does not mean hes not a good doc, on the contrary, he thinks you have a responsible enough mind and is tring to help you get on the right track, he may not be able to solve your life though, that sadly not means your mind is the problem.
     
  13. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    Sorry, but there's no way I don't suffer from this. Even by the way he was acting I can tell he thought I did, too. He just doesn't want to stick a negative label on me. That is it.
     
  14. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Wow, a psychiatrist that isn't interested in meds? :laugh:

    Sometimes i get frustrated with my psychiatrist and the meds he wants to put me on! (He is generally good though and listens to me) I actually prefer to keep my doctor seperate from my therapist.

    Are you able to do any indepedant research to find a local psychiatrist who specialises in treatment of BPD?

    I think you need to make yourself heard, in regards of medications being effective for you.
     
  15. NoMoneyToPlease

    NoMoneyToPlease Banned Member

    Hi kazine.Is you GP in contact with your psychiatrist?
    Is he or she involved in your psychiatric treatment?
     
  16. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    NoMoneyToPlease: The GP probably got feedback from the psych although I'm not sure... He put me on ADs in October and is involved in my depression.

    Domo: Unfortunately I don't really have a choice in just going looking for a new psych :/ I'm on the NHS you see and basically I get what I'm given :/ It was difficult enough to see a psych in the first for a one off, I had to go through the crisis team for that. Maybe I will have to do that again...
     
  17. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    I am from Australia so have limited knowledge about the system in the UK. However i can't say i have heard much good about it...not that it is really all that good anywhere in the world...

    But yes, perhaps try the crisis team again.
     
  18. sunshinesblack

    sunshinesblack Well-Known Member

    what makes you so shure he think u r bpd but does not want to treat you for it? why would he do that?
    I dont get it? :p
     
  19. feathers

    feathers Well-Known Member

    Think I might have to, if I start getting really again.

    And yes, the NHS is, for lack of a better phrase, a complete and utter pile of shite. In four months I've managed to go from a doctors appointment, to a primary care team for an initial assessment, to another primary care team for another initial assessment. And that's where I'm at now. Got absolutely nowhere.

    sunshinesblack, please do not behave so pretentiously with me. I am not in the fucking mood for sarcasm. I know you think I'm not suffering from something... In fact, think what the fuck you want. I know what I'm going through and it's none of your goddamn business if you're going to act like this.
     
  20. sunshinesblack

    sunshinesblack Well-Known Member

    also dont know how the NHS works, but maybe try keep 2 of them for a while? and comapre
    I guess if you feel like you cant trust him you likely are right but i had ones i did not trust and now looking back dunno what they could have done batter, some things also take time, maybe u r bpd and depressed?