fucking stupid

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by The_Discarded, May 1, 2009.

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  1. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    i am way too weak for any of this.

    fuck. what the fuck.
     
  2. plates

    plates Well-Known Member

    what's been happening?
     
  3. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    it's always everything but it can't be fixed so it doesn't make a difference. all those years of ballet and still i can never seem to balance well.

    i just can't get out of this. i can't get out of me.

    i have to get everything out of me but nothing will get out of me so i have to get out of me but i can't. i just don't want to be. i don't want to be.

    and i don't have the fucking balls to do anything about it. and i never will.

    and it's miserable.

    i am absolutely miserable.

    there is no silence, no peace, no rest, no safety anywhere.

    i am absolutely miserable.
     
  4. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    oh, god. nevermind this.

    i don't know what i'm going to do but i'll get over it.

    i keep spending my life "getting over" everything.

    but it doesn't matter. i'll get over it anyway.
     
  5. plates

    plates Well-Known Member

    if it helps anything you've described what i feel perfectly well. ballet and everything. you write beautifully.


    if writing here helps you get something out of you, i'll be willing to listen to anything you want to get out of you.

    sometimes it's just finding a way to get whatever inside of you out and things might feel less overwhelming and less like you need to get rid of yourself. you're not weak for feeling the way you do. :hug:
     
  6. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    thank you triple g,

    you're a sweetheart.

    i'll be just fine.
     
  7. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    :hug:
     
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