Im so fucking useless. I couldnt do it....reports, 24/7 monitoring, always someone looking over your shoulder. Its just hell. Right now I just want to shoot myself for letting everybody down, im a failure, and I cant afford to be. A girl in training asked what happens if your getting abused, over and over...and you just gotta sit there and cop it...its bullshit. Quarterly reviews, analysis of the way you sit for OH&S reasons, every fucking thing is monitored, anaylised, interpreted and kicks you in the ass.
All i want to do is travel and be with my friends, im gonna try and do everything i can to get there, but right now I feel like shit.
Im so so sorry for letting everyone down :sad: :sad: :sad:
I fucking HATE myself.
All i want to do is travel and be with my friends, im gonna try and do everything i can to get there, but right now I feel like shit.
Im so so sorry for letting everyone down :sad: :sad: :sad:
I fucking HATE myself.