I don't know what to do, i've been feeling depressed again for a few weeks now. I've always had pretty much functional depression...as in i can get up every day and do what i have to do but i never get any pleasure out of doing anything. I miss the thrill of life, it has been such a long time since i've felt any excuberance and energy that can make me want to see and do everything. I miss it. Now i'm just glum and half alive and it is rotten! I can't think what is going wrong with me and why i am not yet over this all yet. I have everything in front of me and lovely family and friends and yet i am not that interested in life. I've been on venlafaxine 150mg for 9months now, that's a pretty long time. Sure it has made an improvement and lifted me out of my deep depression but now it has caught me in a trap of nothingness....or at least that is how it feels. I understand everyone has down days and weeks but this has been longer than that now and i'm pretty darn tired of it. I'm going to see a private therapist next wk so i wonder if that will help at all. It will be nice to be able to talk about things without feeling i'm dragging people down. I think my problem is that i have been depressed from 12yrs onwards and now i'm getting better (i'm 23 now), i'm not sure what normal is. Perhaps everyone feels hopeless for awhile? Anyway, i guess i'm not sure what i'm really saying, just trying to get it off my chest.