For those of you who are seriously thinking about suicide, do you ever think about what your funeral is ever going to be like? I mean, its kind of pathetic, but I think about it a lot. This because I dont have any friends, and not a lot of people will show up there...so its kind of emberrassing to think about...even though it doesnt matter when I am dead anyway...do you think about this, and does it emberass you if you know its going to be few there?