ugh and ugh and uuuuuuuugh. i am so super frustrated right now it's beyond me. i have a terrible trust issue problem with like, 99% of humanity and it takes very little for me to just shatter all the trust i had in someone and that's exactly what's happening right now. i live in an apartment on my own, trying to make ends meet really hard, with rent, with bills, with everything. this past month my best friend needed a place to live, so she moved in with me. we decided to share the rent and bills because i needed to invest some money in something else, so it was a good deal for both of us. now she moved out a week ago and is still waiting to get her paycheck so she can cover her part, and in the meantime i already invested the money in what i was planning on to. so i texted her yesterday to just see how she is doing and she totally ignored it. she is supposed to come today pick some stuff up after work. and i am just freaking out, what if this is just another ignorant motherfucker that's just gonna ghost out and storm off? what if i end up getting evicted? don't get me wrong i feel like a huge part of this is all in my head but it is starting to spin out of control. she literally has not mentioned anything about it. i am supposed to clean out bills and rent on monday and it is getting fucking frustrating because i never expected her to be so inconsiderate, especially knowing how much i work to keep this place and make it home. i am super irritated! im supposed to call her in like an hour and a half or so and i am going to go crazy!!!!!