...Usually I hate swearing. But that is by the by. I really don't know if I should be going to these counselling sessions anymore. They make me feel worse. They make me deal with emotions I don't want to deal with. I was warned things could get worse before they get better. This is all probably going to come out as a blob as I admit I am a tad (ok very) drunk. So, bloody hell where do I start...ummmm... So doing placement. Today I have a visit. I can see my old house where I lived with Gom. I have been in the same area a lot though this placement but this close was just a little bit too close. I have even put a client off accommodation at number 62 a house that would be ideal for her but there is no way I can keep her as I client when I lived at 61! So on this vist I was getting paranoid. What if I am seen in the area. I am just goin to look like crazy stalking ex. I don't want that. I Son't know what to do. I am feeling like shit. I'm gonna let again. There is no avoiding it. I dont know how to deal with urges whrn i've been drinking. I am not making much snese am I am I am I am I? Think the best thing is now try get some sleeep and moan blog tomorrow??????????