Well, I'm doing okay. My aderrall is really helping me function & anxiety & panic & mood. I'm kind of having to force food & water, but that's normal & I'm the same weight. I have all the stuff I wanted, pokèmon, majoras mask, 3ds, got money in the bank, respect, attention, work. I should be happy right? I'm just so bored… I can't get into anything. & I feel so alone. Like I just can't make a 'real' connection with anyone. I just feel so trapped, like I'm just diverting everyone from getting close too close to me. I think I'm missing my 'gone' love/ friend. I don't want to replace her, so I just shut everyone out & hide.