This was supposed to be a fun week but its been sooo freaking tiring, and it's just began. I'm so close to crying... My horrible self-confidence leaves me overguessing everything. Am I being good hostess, am I boring... It's just giving me one panic attack after another. And then work calls and leaves a message putting full blame on me for some paperwork not peerfect, screw the fact theres 2 shifts after me that never finished it. It feels like everyone is targeting me. I don't know how much more I can stand. Dear g*d all I wanna do is curl up and cry. This was supposed to be a fun time...is this proof that I don't deserve any fun times? I'm keeping strong, smiling to not worry my guest but I'm terrified I may not have a job when I come back from this vacation and I can't afford that.